The Crossroads

I suppose there comes a time in everyone's life where they look at life and try to put some kind of value to it, or at least something to that degree. You see, over the past several weeks that's pretty much been me. My routine is just that...a routine. The days come and go, sun up, sun down, and the cycle continues. I am now 27 years old. I have a job that is more or less fit for a high school student. I haven't finished college, and even though I keep telling myself that I'm going to back and finish, I never do. I have no wife, no fiancee, no girlfriend, I haven't been on a date in I think 2 years and my last even remote attempt in a relationship was 8 years ago. My family life is complete shit, I basically live in my house as if I were in a dorm, or crashing someone's place and even still I fully understand that it's not as bad as some people have it. But here I am, I go back and look at where I wanted to be going into...and then out of high school, what was expected of me, and where I am now and it seems that disappointment and failure tend to follow me around. I will be completely honest, I worked my ass off in school, and for what? They fed us promises of "being whatever you want to be," and "work hard and it will all pay off in the end," well I'm calling bullshit right now. Let's wake up to the reality of the real world, it's not what you know it's who you know, and as far as college goes, hell it doesn't even matter what degree you have, you get hired as a network administrator with a fucking degree in Lit. Does anyone else not see how fucking idiotic that is?

Though, I am a firm believer that eventually, we all get what we deserve and that it all evens out in the end. I know you're probably thinking that I just said that was bullshit but, there's a difference. You see, in school they tell you that good grades and all that stuff will directly come out to getting better jobs and thus more money and apparently happiness. However as it pertains to life in general. Life deals you gems, and it deals you garbage. You have to roll with the punches and you will eventually get rewarded. That is what I truly believe in and yet, especially as of late I've come to start to question even that. Maybe life just has it out for you in the very beginning. I apologize if I sound like I'm bickering, and to be quite honest I kinda am, but I need a place to vent, things aren't exactly peachy with the rest of my family and most of my people I come in contact with normally are far too busy to take time for me. I've always been the one to shoulder people's problems and yet not once has the gesture really been returned. Maybe that's starting to get under my skin. I feel like I'm drowning right now, and I try to mot let anyone see it, I try to be strong but I suppose that even I have my breaking point when things hit too close to home.

Anyone who truly knows me knows I'm selfless to a fault, and depending on context I guess that turns in to me being too nice of guy and apparently that's a turn off but when I put my foot down I am suddenly and ass. I don't get it. I mean, I do and yet I don't. I will attest to having a sharp tounge and quick wit when I get upset and I'm often opinionated, but not so much to where I shut out other perspectives. But then again maybe that's my problem all together, I try so hard to avoid conflict that I basically become uninteresting and invisible in life. For 27 years I've lived my life trying to make an effect on people's lives and I have done nothing, or at least I have nothing to show for it. I wanted to do great things, I have done nothing, Sometimes I wish someone could just give me answers on how to make things better, make things so my mom doesn't have to worry about being alone anymore, make things so I don't have to worry about the rest of family all the time and make sure they get the things they need. I need some me time and yet every waking moment I spend worrying about others and their agendas. I wish I was good at meeting people and going out.

A Death Knight rant

Okay so if anyone out there has been following the Test Realm changes on Warcraft they would know that Blizzard has pretty much just kicked Death Knights and specifically the frost tree in the balls as of late. First of all, they change a glyph that really wasn't THAT overpowered but I can agree needed some tuning in the Dark Succor glyph. That's the glyph that guarnetees that Death Strike heals you for at least 15% of your total health each time you use it.

I get it, DK's needed a small nerf bat, I agree.

However, that change that as of late that has gotten me irked, if not confused is making Hungering Cold (A frost DKs AoE freeze) on a 1.5 sec cooldown. Now, first of all, it's a junk CC to begin with. It brakes on any non DK didease damage, and only lasts 8 secounds, similar to other CC's. It normally costs 40 runic power, but glyphed is free.

Now I'll be the first to admit that it is a great clutch ability. Able to stop the heal, stop people from running off etc.. But blizzard, let's not punish players for playing well. How is this move any different than a blind? or a teleportation circle? or pally bubble? Are mages going to be the only class who gets a free pass to where they can just pop a move on the ground and forget about it as it completely shuts out flag rooms?

All this realy goes to show anymore is that Blizzard has since gone away from promoting...learning to play and has such adopted a "just get a bunch of people to complain and we'll look into it and make a random change approach"

You want to counter a hungering cold? I'll tell you how.

Stop playing as cleave comps.

Stay spread out some because the range on the move isn't all that great anyway.

Use a damn trinket once in a while.

Either way, everyone seems to be afraid of DKs like they have these awesome aura about them. Sure, they get some moves with far different mecahnics than most people are used to. But, it seems like players take no time to develop any strategy.

It's okay for rogues to heal...but not DKs

it's okay for Mages to have 20 CCs but not DKs

It's okay for Warriors to do a shit ton of damage but not DKs.

Yes DKs were in need of a little tuning but not this classic example of Blizzard over tuning.

The NHL Playoffs: What's on tap part 1 (Eastern Preview)

Tomorrow, the NHL's second season kicks off with five of the eight game ones.

EASTERN CONFERENCE

(1) Washington Capitals v (8) New York Rangers

If anything, this match up is looking to be the upset special of the round. The Caps come into the playoffs as the eastern number one seed, but they are matched up against to Rangers who have more or less had their way with the Caps all season. The Capitals won the first meeting of the season 5-3 but dropped the next three meetings with two of those losses being complete blowouts by scores of 7-0 and 6-0. In order for the Capitals to win, they will need to figure out their nemesis in Henrik Lundqvist. On the other side, the Rangers are without the driving force of their late season surge in Ryan Callahan. Simply keeping Alexander Ovechkin at bay may not guarantee success this time around as the Capitals have received plenty of help from the most unlikely of sources.

(2) Philadelphia Flyers v (7) Buffalo Sabres

The Flyers are a big and strong team who relies more on brute force and intimidation to carry them victory. Come playoff time it has proven to be a logical pathway for success. However, the status of the Flyers Chris Pronger is in question and suddenly the Flyers don't seem all that threatening as Pronger was much more of a backstop than Sergei Bobrovsky had been until late. The Flyers goalie also lacks playoff experience and don't be surprised to see the Flyers other goalie Brian Boucher get some action before this series is over. Buffalo goalie Ryan Miller continues to be the work horse that he his but will the young Sabres team be able to perform under the spotlight or will Miller run out of gas at a crucial moment if the Sabres can't pull out an edge?

(3) Boston Bruins v (6) Montreal Canadiens

By now, I'm sure even the most casual watcher of the game has heard about the controversy surrounding the hit of Boston's Zedeno Chara on Montreal's Max Pacioretty. For that reason alone this series will an extremely emotional one as it is looking to be a straight out brawl, either team will consider themselves luckily if they exit this series with little injury.

(4) Pittsburgh Penguins v Tampa Bay Lightning

Another series that's going to be too close to call as the Penguins and Lightning split the season series 2-2. Pittsburgh is without both Sydney Crosby and Evgeni Malkin, usually the cornerstone for the Penguins come this time of year. Tampa's Steven Stamkos, who was the league leader in goals right up until the last week of the regular season after being overtaken by Anaheim's Corey Perry, is in a bit of a slump but the team as a whole has to firepower to knock off the Pens. This series will come down to who is going to wake up first.

I'll cover the Western side tomorrow evening-ish

Baseball's here again

So it's that time of the year again. Baseball is back, and I'm not really sure why but this season I kind of want to follow it a little bit more. Maybe it's because the Padres did well last season, although maybe it's because I've been playing on Xbox with some hardcore baseball fanatics. Those of you who know me already know I'm always following almost any sport, or at least aware of what's going on but still, this season feels different.

Just another update

Well, here we are almost into April. The situation at hand really hasn't changed much. Houses with our price range have been few and far between, and those that we do find get snatched up pretty damn quick. All the while, my father refuses to take care of business down here leaving my mom to stress even more as she deals with the whole thing along with work and the housing situation and just everything overwhelms her. I wish there was something that I could do, but this time I just can't.

In the mean time I'm still trying to figure out what exactly my father is looking for in all of this. He claims to want to be apart of our lives and yet he's never around. He drops a text message every once in a while but that's it. I don't want to go as far as say he's becoming unstable but there really is no rhyme or reason to his actions as far as I can see, unless he's benefiting in some way he's just not telling. As far as I know, he's basically shacked up with this "friend" and helping here with her jobs, which is basically doing a bunch of bitch work on homes that people have gotten kicked out of. He's also technically doing similar work that he was doing before he got let go as well, but those jobs seem to come sporadically, in fact those jobs are the only reason he ever seems to show his face around.

I can't go as far as to say I hate the man, but this whole round of bullshit needs to end. He is 50 acting like a spoiled little 12 year old who doesn't get his way. As far as I am concerned he he running around looking for attention, of course I'm sure he would say that I am wrong but I'm not as much of an idiot as he thinks I am. The whole thing is really not fair to anyone. Well I guess I'm once again stuck cleaning up his mess.