So this post is going to be a little bit a personal ramble, you've been forewarned.
It's been about two month since I started my new job as a barista at The Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf. Don't get me wrong, the job is great, my boss is great, and my co-workers are great. But as each day goes by I can't help but to face the facts. I'm twenty-nine years old. I work at a job that in all honesty is going ultimately lead to no where, and my financial situation isn't getting any better. To make a long story short, I've spent the last week or so helping my mom with bankruptcy paperwork that stems from my parents separating. It's all a real complicated situation that in all honesty, I shouldn't be worrying about but yet I have to in case the shit overflows, if you catch my drift.
Anyways, back to the job. It's a decent job. I can't complain too much except for a few points. I feel that in the four or five hours I work each day, I work my ass off. There was/is a lot to learn and I'm honestly am still trying to grasp it all. I'm trying my best not to screw up too badly, and some days are better than others. My shift supervisors keep telling me that I'm doing a good job considering my expedited training but I can't help to shake the feeling that they may be not telling me everything. I dunno, maybe it's all in my head. Still though, that fact that I'm turning thirty I should be doing something in my life. Something meaningful. I feel behind, I feel like a missed a step and here I am saying I'm trying to plan for the future when it feels like my future is getting shorter and shorter.
I feel stuck.
Below average job, no girlfriend, hell not even any friends around here. It's hard to get motivated to do anything. I have so many problems that I need to figure out for myself and yet I feel like I need to take on everyone else's problems as well.
I'm not sure how long I'm going to last. I don't know what to do about it.
As for the title of this post? The Future? How do I get there?
I would very much like to go back to school, even if it's a trade school. I'm good with computers, I enjoy working with computers. I plan to focus on that. But I'm not really sure how to take that step anymore. It would have been so easy for an eighteen year old kid, fresh out of school. It's a little harder now.
I need a second income, but I can't really work a second job right now. For the last few months, I've been thinking about taking my gaming to online streaming. It could be a source of revenue, but that only takes off if I get a lot of viewers. Also, I had thought about, and tried my hand a little about writing articles for various websites. As of right now I check my Yahoo! Contributor Network account and have amassed a grand total of one cent for 4 page views. I see some promise here, but I need to find a little more time.
I guess I'm just a work in progress. The ball has slowly started rolling. My first goal was to acquire a job, because living off of unemployment sucks. That's done. Now to rebuild my life again.
The Shroud of Thought
My views about various topics that may only interest me. Focusing around Sports, Video Games, Tech, and life in general
The new XBox is.....
So, Microsoft announces the XBox One! No really, that's the name. It's alright, I don't much get it either.
What it is?
Well, while it does play games, Microsoft spared no expense on highlighting everything it did EXCEPT for play games. They are really trying to push the fact that it's so much more than a gaming console, and I get it. But the gaming console is why a majority of people are going to buy the damn thing. Why alienate your main audience? It's a glorified set top box that happens to play games.
But, it has features!!!
Other than the tech upgrades, which are nice and clearly better than the 360, they spent half of the presentation demonstrating overly exaggerated motion and voice commands that will probably only work half the time once it comes out. Oh yeah, it's already stuff that the current Kinect does. Oh yeah, and everything is always faster for a tech demo. So while you're out there waving your arms trying to minimize your video...I'll stick to hitting my B button.
But, the games!
Yeah I missed the last ten minutes of the conference so I'm assuming that's when they actually got around to talking about games. Fifteen exclusive titles for the XBox One!!! Oh wait, half of those will be the usual suspects. Halo, Gears, Forza etc...
On a positive note, in spite of rumors and internet pitchforkateering. The console won't require to be online all the time! Though on a personal note, I'm not really sure what all the commotion is about always online. Really I don't. I guess people equate always online to DRM and I suppose in a sense they are right. But always online helps deter cheaters and if there's one group of gamers I despise more than the pirates, if the people who blatantly cheat.
Oh and the whole thing about used games is probably the most condescending thing I've heard from a console maker, ever. It's basically saying while we don't really like used games sales, we'll give you the honor of being able to purchase an extra key for a nominal fee. So yes, the CD key is tied to your profile! Which is why they don't need always on. What in the actual fuck? So, not only do you NOT own the game you dropped $60, but probably more closer to $70 on, you can't let your buddy borrow the sweet adventure because he can't play it without dropping an extra $10-$20 bucks just to be able to play it. This is so wrong I can't even really put words to it. Way to just demolish the entire culture of gaming! Gone are the days of bringing your discs (though in my day it was cartridges) to class and trading with some friends. In Microsoft's eyes, those days are gone. Well Microsoft, you may have just weaseled your way out of the game market, good luck trying to force feed IE to people!!!
All-in-all, I for one am not impressed. It's a glorified set-top box that's moving AWAY from games and gamers. You can watch TV! Apparently you need an Xbox for that?
On a side note, The fantasy sports feature was pretty neat, not groundbreaking, but neat.
What it is?
Well, while it does play games, Microsoft spared no expense on highlighting everything it did EXCEPT for play games. They are really trying to push the fact that it's so much more than a gaming console, and I get it. But the gaming console is why a majority of people are going to buy the damn thing. Why alienate your main audience? It's a glorified set top box that happens to play games.
But, it has features!!!
Other than the tech upgrades, which are nice and clearly better than the 360, they spent half of the presentation demonstrating overly exaggerated motion and voice commands that will probably only work half the time once it comes out. Oh yeah, it's already stuff that the current Kinect does. Oh yeah, and everything is always faster for a tech demo. So while you're out there waving your arms trying to minimize your video...I'll stick to hitting my B button.
But, the games!
Yeah I missed the last ten minutes of the conference so I'm assuming that's when they actually got around to talking about games. Fifteen exclusive titles for the XBox One!!! Oh wait, half of those will be the usual suspects. Halo, Gears, Forza etc...
On a positive note, in spite of rumors and internet pitchforkateering. The console won't require to be online all the time! Though on a personal note, I'm not really sure what all the commotion is about always online. Really I don't. I guess people equate always online to DRM and I suppose in a sense they are right. But always online helps deter cheaters and if there's one group of gamers I despise more than the pirates, if the people who blatantly cheat.
Oh and the whole thing about used games is probably the most condescending thing I've heard from a console maker, ever. It's basically saying while we don't really like used games sales, we'll give you the honor of being able to purchase an extra key for a nominal fee. So yes, the CD key is tied to your profile! Which is why they don't need always on. What in the actual fuck? So, not only do you NOT own the game you dropped $60, but probably more closer to $70 on, you can't let your buddy borrow the sweet adventure because he can't play it without dropping an extra $10-$20 bucks just to be able to play it. This is so wrong I can't even really put words to it. Way to just demolish the entire culture of gaming! Gone are the days of bringing your discs (though in my day it was cartridges) to class and trading with some friends. In Microsoft's eyes, those days are gone. Well Microsoft, you may have just weaseled your way out of the game market, good luck trying to force feed IE to people!!!
All-in-all, I for one am not impressed. It's a glorified set-top box that's moving AWAY from games and gamers. You can watch TV! Apparently you need an Xbox for that?
On a side note, The fantasy sports feature was pretty neat, not groundbreaking, but neat.
Reminder: #XBoxReveal tomorrow
Alright gamers and XBox fans, the time is almost here! Microsoft is revealing the new XBox tomorrow. I'll unfortunately be at work while the event is going on, but I'll be on tomorrow to post my thoughts.
NHL Playoffs: A fight of epic proportions
I didn't get a chance to see the game but tonight's game with the Senators and the Canadiens turned out to be quite the doozy.
At the end of the game the Montreal ended up with 129 team penalty minutes, and Ottawa with 107. There are only 60 minutes in a game...
At the end of the game the Montreal ended up with 129 team penalty minutes, and Ottawa with 107. There are only 60 minutes in a game...
My main problem with team esports
I'm going to go in a little opposite direction from the subject of my last few posts. In addition to being a huge sports fan, I also play quite a bit of video games. While I won't sit here and bore you with my qualifications, it's something that I've happily enjoyed for most of life. To be more specific I want to talk about the electronic sports scene, commonly referred to esports.
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